What made you stop being an addict?

This was February 2019.

Read that again ☝️

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Why do many Hong Kong Chinese look different from the Han Chinese in mainland China?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Recently, I cleared my JP Morgan coding round. Next, I received mail for a video interview. What kind of questions are asked in this round? How do I prepare myself?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

How should one respond to compliments such as "You are so special" and "I'm lucky to have met you" from a guy?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Have you ever accidentally found out that you were about to be fired?

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

You found a love potion, and your friend tried to use it on an attractive popular girl, but he accidentally dropped it on the neighbors dog. Now the dog won't stop following him. How would you help him?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Shedeur Sanders goes the extra mile to win the Cleveland Browns starting quarterback job and the whole world is there to appreciate it - MARCA

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

As a teacher, what's the most inappropriate experience you've had with a student?

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Why do old men think young women and girls would want them over guys their own age?

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

Why can't I lose weight?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Just keep trying

Why do people say "tall, dark, and handsome" when they actually mean "tall, white, and handsome"?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

What is the most overrated pleasure? Why?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

And I can also talk to them now.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life